Say I Do

I have always been adored Vania Larissa since I saw her on Hitam Putih. She was 17 back then, young, inspiring, and Miss Indonesia 2013. But I didn't follow news about her like I did to my other idols. Time passed and surprisingly, I knew she had just married. I thought, "Wow... She is just 19 when she said "I do" but I also acknowledge that age doesn't matter when it comes to true love. Some said no matter what your requirements and targets are, when you meet "the one" you just know, without notification and prepareness. The feeling and gut just... exist.

I searched her wedding video in Bali. It was beyond beautiful. The day had come for her. But somehow it directed me to another wedding video. And this one is one thing.


The look at the groom at 2.28 when he waited for the love of his life walking the aisle with her father was really something. I was so astonished that I kept turn back the video to see the groom's expression for some times. 

Let me depict that by words.

He-maybe like many guys-knew that he no longer got freedom. Can't spend time with his friends as much as he got before. Can't took off the socks and put them anywhere as he used to be. Can't work overnight. Can't do whatever the f*ck he wants to do without discussing with the girl before. Besides, being in commitment called marriage require this (poor?) man to think about the girl's need as before she fed herself and now it became this man's responsibility, children education, insurance, and many other (un)trivial things.

But again somehow,

He chose her. And I am sure "he would still choose her; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, he'd choose her." 


The celebration they made for themselves more less was how I have always wanted for myself. In a tranquil place with the blessing of only family and close friends. The simple lace white gown. The dance. And more importantly, the man who will give me that "expression".
The Dance